Lemme get my boots!!

A quote from my fabulous friend E referring to our conversation tonight. In talking with her and through the events of the weekend I have come to some conclusions. And to preface this blog, my mind is everywhere; therefore, my post tonight will be as well.

The first thing that is present on my mind is how wonderful my friends are. I was born an only child, but God has granted me with the people in my life that are closer than friends, they've become my sisters! Elizabeth and Christina are my saving grace, my good time out, my family, my girls!

Todd Sutton preaches that if you have 5 people that you can call in the middle of the night and they would be there for you, you are blessed. And these are people that aren't your family! On the top of that list is of course, E and C, but then God has blessed me with Lambda Theta Chi. I am very lucky to have these girls to call my sisters. "From the outside looking in you can't understand it; from the inside looking out, you can never explain it!"

The next thing on my mind is something that I have known for a while, but have decided tonight to finally take to heart-- If I have to explain to a guy why I won't sleep with him, he's not the right guy for me!! Too often in my relationships I find myself saying I'm not ready, I don't want to, I want to be in love. The truth is, I don't have to explain myself at all, and if I was with the right guy; he wouldn't be asking in the first place. Why can't my head keep up with my heart. Or maybe its the other way around. My heart needs to catch up to my head. I know in my heart what I wnat in a guy. I want a guy that loves God more than he loves me, because in turn he will have the love and respect for me that God wants me to have. For some reason, however, I can't seem to remember those things when I'm letting my emotions take over myself and when I become to consumed with having a boyfriend. I need to stop seeking the attention from guys and start putting the attention on God. Then perhaps I wouldn't have to worry about explaining myself, being talked to disrespectfully and being put in situations that I don't want to be in.

I need to find a church and put myself back into God's presence. I am not sure where I want to go, I don't know if Riverbluff is right for me. But I know that not trying to seek God is not the path I need to be on.

In conclusion, these are my thoughts on this weekend and the conclusions the weekend has brought me too. Please pray for my journey.