The Great Shoe Debate....

Phew- I am living sitting down and writing in my blog. We have been so busy at work- blogging was not even in my repertoire. BUT- thankfully, things are slowly calming down and I have started working on ME again!

That being said- I have started back at the gym! *pause for gasping and belief*
I have and I am LOVING it!! I love the feel I get when I can get in my own little world and just escape!

I'm bragging on myself because I have a problem tho!! My poor wittle feet! I am definately needing some new shoes! Right now I have Sketchers Shape-ups and I'm sorry Kim Kardashian- but these SUCK! Which I laugh because I wanted them so bad!

I need to go shopping- really- I do! This is not just an excuse to shop- I'm gettin blisters and all! The back of my ankles are hurting! Blisters on both.

I have big, wide feet and would love any suggestions! Adidas? New Balance? Nike? Definately staying away from Sketchers and with my big, wide feet- shoes from Walmart and Target are really a no go.

What's the best? If you work out alot? Let me know! This is a need!!

Thanks and I'll see ya at the gym!

"Cyberbully"

WOW! My heart is aching right now. I am watching this move on ABC Family about cyber bullying. I would HATE to be a teenager today! I don't think I would have the strength. I'm going to go there- I'm gonna say it- but "kids these days just know too much"! WOW! Someone get me a cane and some dentures!

OK, but seriously- it was hard enough on me as a 15, without the hassle of internet and social networking. Today's teens get it at every angle.

When I started my sophomore year of high school at Northwood Academy- I thought it was going to be great. I thought it was going to be a fun year and I was going to have lots of friends. Never in my life had I hurt so bad as when I came home from school that FIRST day and wanted to die! That was after ONE day!
My saint of a mother got the application for School of the Arts the next day and I spent the next 4 months in agony until I got accepted to SOA and I knew I could move and leave the torcher.

This post is not a rant about who hurt my feelings, and it's been over 10 years! I am friends with someone of those people (OK-facebook friends) but they may very well read this and I don't really care!

This post is about how my heart aches for the "youth of the nation". My heart has been craving the Lord in so many ways! One is the women's ministry that I am trying to start. I have given it to God and feel that it will be a success if He wants it to be. The other thing I am missing is the chance to work with students. My best friend recently was a counselor for a week long camp. I was so jealous of her- in a the best kind of way. I was also thrilled for her to experience a close connection with God. In that jealousy (still not the right word), I found myself having more of a desire to work with students more. I just want each student I encounter to know what a precious creation to God they are. To know that someone, whether they think so or not, loves them- with a pure heart and that they have this rock in the Lord that they can lean on at any time.

My wish would be prayer is that no person be subject to the pain given to them from others; from persecution from being different, shorter, fatter, a Christian, not a jock, a gamer. I want them to see how special they are and how God has a purpose for each one of them.

My prayer for myself is that God will find a way to use me the best way He sees fit to work more with these wonderful students so they can know just how awesome they are!

Linking myself! :-P

Decided to link myself to Kelly's Korner Blog for singles. I tell everyone I am looking for the man God has for me- so you never know! 

Watergate Salad

I am linking with Kelly's Korner Blog today to share a favorite summer dessert!
Watergate Salad

• 1 (3.4 ounce) package instant pistachio pudding mix
• 1 (8 ounce) can crushed pineapple, with juice
• 1 cup miniature marshmallows
• 1/2 cup chopped walnuts
• 1/2 (8 ounce) container frozen whipped topping, thawed 

In a large bowl, mix together pudding mix, pineapple with juice, marshmallows, and nuts. Fold in whipped topping. Chill.

I always double my recipe to make it go farther and last a little longer! :)

Let Go and Let God!

I love this song, "This is the Stuff"... My last post I was so down... so sad... so silly, but sometimes, you just need to get it out. We all have our sad times.
 
I am so lucky tho, b/c I had a weekend where I was truly reminded how blessed I am. I am surrounded by people who love me and who are always there for me- no matter what. I am so lucky honored to have these people in my life! 
 
Thanks for the kind words and encouragement. I am truly blessed. 
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On a seperate note- this week it the start of a big change happening in my life. I am not sure what the outcome will be- I have given it to God and know that whatever He thinks should be, will be. I want this- and will explain more about it later- but, I'm going to "Let Go and Let God!"

A Step Behind...

My entire life I have felt like I am a step behind-
-last to be picked for a team
-last one to finish a race
-last years clothes from the clearance rack
-last to be invited
-last to get a date
-last to join
-last to love

Everything in my life has always been a struggle.
Nothing has ever come easy.
I look around and see everyone with things and lives I want.

Why is this my life? Why have I been hurt more than I have been loved? Why do I draw to people who hurt me?

What did I do wrong?
---maybe if I were thinner
---maybe if I were prettier
---maybe if I were richer
---maybe if I were smarter
---maybe if I were a boy
---maybe if I gave in
---maybe if I hadn't
---maybe if I conformed
---maybe if I would have been a leader
---maybe if I weren't me

Maybe one day I will get the things I dreamed of.
Maybe one day I will get the man I prayed for.
Maybe one day I will get the family I hoped for.
Maybe one day I will at least love me- even if no one else will.

A Women's Bible Study

Lately, I have felt God at work in my life. I feel so incredibly blessed by what He is doing for me. In that, I keep asking Him to show me what I can do to give back to Him in some small way- though I know it won't compare to all He has given me!

My heart is craving a women's ministry. I recently put on facebook that I was seeking one out, but someone posted a comment that if I started one- they would come. That has got me thinking... God blessed me with the beautiful house- one with lots of room- and a couch big enough to seat many! What if I hosted a Bible study?? I don't know yet if I am at the point of "leading" one- but does any true study have a leader, other than God? We could allow Him to lead... I have a teaching backround and know how to prepare a lesson- it wouldn't be much to prepare something once a week in the evenings.

So that's where I am- I am going to begin to pray about if this is the right decision. This was not where I was going with this, but it's where He has lead me to think on.

I also ask- Charleston and CRBC friends (women), as you read this- would you be interested? Would you come? If so, what day and time and what would you want to study??

So many questions I am facing and have to pray about and let God decide for me.